After our break up, I convinced myself that I can live without you. That I deserved better, someone who isn't afraid to love me. I guess you thought nothing would change, but it all did, slowly. Days passing, I took steps back. I wanted to move on. But how more steps I took away from you, how more scared you began to feel. You said you didn't want to lose me. You said you enjoyed every time we hanged out. More and more you say you love me. You confuse me.
I still love you. I always will. But I'm not in the mood to get nowhere. To be emptyhanded when it gets to serious for you.
I want someone to build a future with, someone who will stand by my side. No matter what
I've waited over 2 years to be your girl, to be the one you love. And finally, my prayer had been answered. we were together. it wasn't always easy, cause you didn't care about certain things, how they made me feel. I didn't say anything, cause I didn't wanna fight. I was scared to lose you, cause I couldn't handle that. After a little while, you said you wanted to talk, I was already scared from that moment. You talked about you being scared, that you didn't know what love feels like. You were scared that you would waste my time. I asked you ; do you love me? All you could say was ; ' how does it feel, loving someone ? ' That moment right there, was the beginning of my heartbreak. I felt the tears runnin' up my eyes. I didn't wanna cry, not in front of you, so I went for a smoke. You came behind me. So we talked and talked. In the end I only wanted to know one thing? '' What do you want? '' , '' Do you wanna break up or you want to stay with me? " . You couldn't even look at me, cause you'd know that you'd break my heart. You were sayin' goodbye, when all I really wanted, is for you to stand by my side :(
I'm really thinking for giving up on you I thought a really long time and honestly? There has to be a miracle before you want to go to a relationship Right now, I have this feeling like you don''t give a shit and that you will never change or say that you love me. I can't keep on waiting for you.
For you, it doesn't matter that you lose me, as long as there's no relationship. So I keep wondering, how much do you really love me? Am I just a habbit? Or a passing-time girl?
I don't want to be unhappy or thinking about this. You had a choice, you made a promise. You just didn't make them true, so much time later..
I want those things, not just no strings attached.